This poem talks about my experience with bipolar disorder. Sometimes I am really depressed, and other times I am manic. Sometimes I have mixed mania where I am depressed and also agitated. It’s hard but as time goes on, I’ve learned to cope better and medications have helped. If you deal with bipolar or any other mental health condition, know there is hope, help and support out there. Keep on keeping on.

Mania

My skin is crawling, and I can’t sleep.
My anxiety is building. I’m in too deep.
My knee is bouncing and I can’t unwind.
My thoughts are racing through my mind.

My impulses are screaming. I need a fix.
Spending mony is surely quick.
My emotions are churning at a crazy pace.
I need to solve the problems that I face.

Nothing satisfies for very long.
Constant changes, mostly wrong.
Why can’t I get a handle on my thoughts.
Surely this is just a matter of what I ought.

This mood is so volatile that it can always change.
One minute happy, the next insane.
Mixed mania is surely not a treat.
Surviving it really is quite a feat.

But steadily I learn from each day,
How to manage and keep in the way.
So, while mania comes and goes.
I’m still amazing, this I know.

©2024 Stephanie Blomquist